I honestly wish you the best. I’m not an asshole, and I know this sounds bitter but after what I’ve seen and experienced I really have no faith at all in humanity and given up on society both as a locale community and as a global whole. I don’t care what happens to “us” at all, in the Ukraine or Israel, and definitely not what happens to the climate or planet after I’m gone. I don’t wish to change the world or contribute to society or leave a mark on this place at all anymore, just to selfishly enjoy the pleasures of the flesh (alcohol, video games, porn) in between work shifts until my time is up or I decide it’s not even worth it anymore, and to in the meanwhile be fucked with by other human beings as little as possible anymore until then. Select members of my immediate family are the only exception.
Good luck to you. Despite feeling this way, I still hope good and honest people have a decent human experience and get along as they deserve. So if you’re one of them, this applies to you.
I don’t blame you, and I think I understand the pain, I’ve been repeating myself for the last ten years that I’ve already died, I still repeat it before bed. I share disinterest in the facts in the world, you are fully right in the interested only to your realities like yourself and your family, I don’t think there is much more when you were born as excluded, I feel so myself, my battle has become another. I no longer seek my happiness because I don’t think I’m suitable for it. But, you are the obvious proof that there are people with the same sensations, and then my purpose is now to try to find the closest physically to me and approach it as throwing me into a pit of thorns wirhout any fear.
I honestly wish you the best. I’m not an asshole, and I know this sounds bitter but after what I’ve seen and experienced I really have no faith at all in humanity and given up on society both as a locale community and as a global whole. I don’t care what happens to “us” at all, in the Ukraine or Israel, and definitely not what happens to the climate or planet after I’m gone. I don’t wish to change the world or contribute to society or leave a mark on this place at all anymore, just to selfishly enjoy the pleasures of the flesh (alcohol, video games, porn) in between work shifts until my time is up or I decide it’s not even worth it anymore, and to in the meanwhile be fucked with by other human beings as little as possible anymore until then. Select members of my immediate family are the only exception.
Good luck to you. Despite feeling this way, I still hope good and honest people have a decent human experience and get along as they deserve. So if you’re one of them, this applies to you.
I don’t blame you, and I think I understand the pain, I’ve been repeating myself for the last ten years that I’ve already died, I still repeat it before bed. I share disinterest in the facts in the world, you are fully right in the interested only to your realities like yourself and your family, I don’t think there is much more when you were born as excluded, I feel so myself, my battle has become another. I no longer seek my happiness because I don’t think I’m suitable for it. But, you are the obvious proof that there are people with the same sensations, and then my purpose is now to try to find the closest physically to me and approach it as throwing me into a pit of thorns wirhout any fear.