Death is mysterious. But do you really want to seek it ? It will eventually come anyways, so why seek it before it comes.
Even though it was not our choice to be alive, we do have the choice to live it in 100 different ways. I cannot judge the hardship you are facing, but rather than seeing death, why not try changing the variables of your life or help change it for someone less fortunate than you ?
This is not available on Android yet right ?