The reverse, actually.

I’ve since found help at an institute that specializes in my particularities, I’m happy to share.

I’m learning to be kind to myself, too. Slowly.

Do you work in that field?

Give it a try. There’s different brands. I learned that I quite prefer those with milk based protein, and dislike those with pea based protein.

In my case, they did. Yes, of course there is more context.

Had 2 psychologists refuse to work with me, after they got to know me

Stochastic parrot is a term describing your experience with AI.

I’ve an aunt like that, ready to engage in every conversation despite not understanding the topic. Regugitating whatever she saw on her tv, in her own words.

So in a sense, the current large language models do mimic some human’s behaviour.

I’ve given up and have been eating yfood (meal in powder form, EU soylent equivalent) for the last 9 months.

The better option amongst many bad options, is how I rationalize my choice.

Most people don’t realise, yet so obvious

I’ve made my own tv stand using these 3d printed corner pieces: https://www.thingiverse.com/thing:4877887/comments

I’ve seen bright IR emittors, that can oversaturate some cameras

Thank you for the suggestion. I’ll look into that

I don’t know what that is. Please, tell me all about it

You can have a phone and a vape. Double pleasure.

5-HTP serves me well. It’s got a similar serotonin impact without the tripiness of shrooms.

Shrooms are definitely dangerous, especially for people who are prone to schizophrenia I’ve read.

Personally, they made me realize my mind is capable of being content. No longer full blast, spinning plates all of the time.

That experience made me realise change is possible, and I got professional help a year later. Turns out I’ve been living in C-PTSD since I was 5.

This might be a weird one, but it is helping me a lot.

My deepest spirals into depression and alcohol abuse happen in the evening and at night.

I switched to waking up early (5am), focused on experiencing and enjoying sunrise as a kind of meditation, then going about my day. I’m off to bed by 8pm.

There’s still days where I can’t catch sleep for hours, mind racing. But hours past 8pm is still only 2am.

Listening to music: And I mean REALLY listening to music

Amen. I’ve been listening to the same album since february. Trying to decypher every baseline, every cymbal.

Brings my mind to a happier place.

You’re confusing cause and effect, I fear

Please share

Everything I’d been thinking about was our future together, now none of that means anything.

In the same boat 2 years in. It hurts. Hope it gets better some day.